Since my last post, it is evident that another tumor, the one on my spine at the base of my skull, has decided to grow by leaps and bounds. That was almost missed with my last CT Scan on September 18. So during October the oncologists at Cross Cancer Institute (CCI) in Edmonton, Alberta have decided to hit that tumor a second time with radiation with 10 daily treatments beginning Monday, November 04 and continuing to November 18.
So on the coming Sunday I will be flying to Edmonton once again for a two-week stint. The tumor growth is evident because of new pains in my head on the left hand side, caused by the tumor disturbing nerves in my skull.
The Pain Management Team will be meeting with me too at CCI on November 05. They now have me on a few drugs that are controlling the pain quite well. The major side effect is being tired and drowsy. I will need an hour nap today, I am sure.
I am continuing my alternative healing, integrated with the CCI radiation and oncology treatments. The keys in this natural healing protocol are primarily:
- Strong belief in my continued recovery (Ref: The Biology of Belief - Bruce Lipton);
- Continuing to reduce sugar and simple carbs from my nutrition, and adding concentrated curcumin as a supplement;
- Taking two elk velvet capsules per day to boost my immune system (not one cold over the past 5 years!)
- Continuing to inject an extract of mistletoe three times a week (Iscador and now Helixor, prescribed treatment for cancer in Germany).
To be continued next week as radiation kicks in. I will have more information about two great cancer recovery sites, so stay tuned!
October 10, 2019. What is my cancer up to now?
I like Bruce Lipton's great book: "The Biology of Belief". It reinforces my belief that I can coax my T-cells to change my DNA and attack the cancer cells, through my strong belief in healing and through my own mind.
The cancer is insidious. It grows whenever I turn my back on it. One tumor that has been dormant for months decides to grow. The tumor at the bottom of my spine, in the left sacrum area, has nearly doubled in size over the past months. But I believe the Nivolumab immunotherapy will put it in remission again.
Our dear family doctor in Inuvik, Dr Gail Robson, still believes me to be a miracle. She expected me to die months/years ago. On Tuesday morning, at my appointment with her, when I said I was confident that the Nivo would put me back in remission, she replied - "Yes of course, knowing you!"
So here is my spiritual belief. I believe that my healing has now reached a higher plane. My Creator, my God, and I must work together to heal (God healing through me). That does not mean that I will not die soon if God has some purpose within His will. In any case I know that God as a great shepherd holds us as lambs of His fold (Isaiah 40:11) and that He will lead us to His Son - "the Rock (Psalm 61:2) that is higher than I." My human body may crumble, as my spirit prospers and soars above any calamity in this life.
That is all for now. More very soon.
The Pain Management Team at Cross Cancer continue to phone me once a week to see how things are going. On last Friday late afternoon October 4 I received my weekly update call. They asked about vivid dreams. Well ---let me tell you about two vivid dreams that occurred on the night of Wednesday October 2, which incidentally was my worst ever day of pain. Pain was everywhere - ribcage, hips, legs and thighs, severe headache like a migrain. Pain right now is almost gone, but then was 8-9 out of 10 in intensity. Ok here are the dreams.
Dream 1: In a burning house
I am sitting in the kitchen of the old house on the farm. Those of you who have my 2014 poetry book - Pine Cones and Small Stones - have seen that house in black and white. There is a forested area to the west.
There is a wildfire approaching from the west. It seems to stop just to the west of the house. There are two other people who don't look familiar in the room with me. All of a sudden someone outside the open back door, now closed only by the screendoor, cries out it's going to go!! Meaning that the house is burning, the roof is on fire.
The two others hurry out the door and watch the house burn. I continue to sit calmly in the kitchen. I can hear the roaring of the fire behind and above me in the attic. I can hear the crackling and smell the smoke. I know that the old house is insulated only with wood shavings in the walls, which means that the west side of the house is burning like a torch. But I still calmly sit there in the kitchen while everyone else has left.
I see that the western side of the house must be disintegrating because the flames and ashes and smoke are starting to blow from the west past my only exit, the back door. Finally I finally admit my danger of being consumed by the fire and walk quickly out the kitchen door and down the steps with the smoke stinging my nose.
What a fun dream that was.
Vivid dream 2: biking accelerating uphill through rocks
I walk with others down some jagged brown sandstone rocks for about 20 steps or so and then we stop on a flat rock platform. I see a bicycle there so I hop on and think about trying to pedal through the football sized rocks. All of a sudden the bike begins to move, and to accelerate back uphill as if I had pointed it downhill!
A very rough ride over the rocks until at the top I see that the final hurdle is a rock formation in the shape of a ramp. So, still just coasting, I accelerate up the ramp and into the air. I look down on the rocky landscape about 20 meters below and feel a thrill go through me. Then I fall gracefully until I am just standing there on the rocks, still as can be.
It would be nice in life to accelerate uphill through the laborious rocks that hold us back and be free. -- Free!!
